sometimes everything seems dull. a long day at work. inside. plans that fell through. a missed phone call. an uneventful night. i smell like coffee and i feel heavy. i feel like eating sushi and drinking green tea and water for the next week. i would like to lose weight. physical weight and emotional weight. i want to feel excited. i want to feel fresh and new and glowing. i want to feel lean and light and like a dancer...