i believe i have a problem with being spontaneous. i want to hang out with j and he wants to throw anthony in the lake. sometimes we're so different. i'm quiet: he's the life of the party. i'm scared: he doesn't have a clue. i know the lack of similarities will come between us someday...hopefully that day is far away. he is my closest friend next to kathy. and getting closer all the time. i think i've dealt to many cards and i run the risk of losing everything.