i was a shy kid. i was a bit of a dreamer. a little out of touch with reality. of course, it was probably just my ADD, but this tendency to drift off, to not pay attention got me in trouble most times. i thought i was stupid, why couldn't i just pay attention? why did i always get information mixed up? i grew up thinking i was stupid, and i thought by asking questions it would just make me sound dumber. well i've sort of retained this habit into my adult life. i'm an art school graduate but i feel like i don't know anything so i'm afraid to apply for jobs because i feel i'm unqualified. i don't think it's so much that i lack the ambition. i lack the confidence, and feeling afraid of letting people down is what has me living in a cramped little room, in lonely halifax with that big elephant in the corner of my room: what the hell am i doing with my life?