last night was the most depressing party i've ever been too. too many people i didn't know and too many people that didn't know how to drink. people passed out or throwing up on the lawn and a girl throwing up and screaming and crying in a bedroom. the girls parents came, so did the paramedics as well as the police.
and everyone wanted to get in on the excitment and drama. people this girl didn't know were flocking around and acting like someone was hit by a bus. i'm not saying that it's a bad thing to be concerned or help out but there should really just be a few close friends around to take care of her. not to be some stranger who wants to look heroic.
it's amazing how much we tend to hurt ourselves. it's no wonder society thinks we're stupid. you have a good life, food in your stomach, clothes on your back but if you want to have a good time you've got to pratically kill yourself with every drug out there. i'm not saying i'm against drinking but really...where did all this angst come from?
i think it's because we want to feel like there's still blood pumping in our bodies.
and you never feel more alive then when you're hurting.
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"You never feel more alive than when you're hurting."
I've never looked at it like that. Interesting.
This is probably not news to you, but maybe I'll add some more perspective to it. Where I'm from, the drinking age isn't a huge deal at all. And, on the whole, people don't do "this" to themselves (get trashed, pass out, etc.) in the name of having a good time. The drinking age is a huge deal in North America.
On the other hand, the driving age is a huge deal where I'm from. The result? Twelve year old kids driving their daddys' cars illegally (without a license!) It's one of the few places in the world where cops randomly pull you over just to check if you have a driver's license. The driving age in North America? "Who cares! I know I'm going to own a car and drive at some point." It's not a commodity.
I really think that restricting a teenager from doing something unconditionally is what causes this. We're all just rebels at the end of the day.
well i know that people don't just drink to hurt themselves. i should know because i drink and i don't go looking to hurt myself. but i don't expect people to give me any pity because i'm to drunk to stand.
and the reason why i said that you never feel more alive than when you're hurting is because it's true. you're never more aware of you own existence than when you faced with it's destruction. being sick or hurting yourself is a small form of that destruction.
i realize now that i probably sound to preachy in that post. i guess i just felt really sad at that party for some reason.
You weren't preachy at all. I think it really is a very interesting way of looking at the situation... it's very true, too. I never really thought about it, but it's true - when you're hurting, your own existence is magnified in every way.
I know what you mean. There are nights when I just feel distant even in a room packed full of people I get along with. It's hard to explain. It's like I let go and disconnect myself from everything.
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