anna: i did get everything i could want....

i got: a shutter release cord, and 50's pin up girl calendar, and book of national geographics most famous portraits, a book about photoshop, some pj's, bath stuff, a loofah, the third harry potter movie (i'm a nerd), a watch, some beautiful earrings and a pin, and great burnt cd, some records, and (sigh) a medium format camera.

all in all an excellent christmas....i think next year though i'm going to set a 20 dollar limit for presents....and try to make most of them...even if it means starting them in the summer...

my internet hasn't worked until now!
i hope everyone had a good christmas...

it seemed as though i had nothing to say,
until now...
my cat died today.

do you ever have one of those days where nothing goes right?
i sat on the bus home and leaned my head back to take deep breaths and close my eyes.
the boy sitting next to me smelled and looked a bit like joey...
it was kind of comforting...
i didn't feel so lonely.

sometimes i daydream too much... 

it's funny how a 15 minute bus ride can make you slow down and actually think about how small you really are in the world.

i know i can be cold sometimes.
there was snow on the ground when i was born,
and the stars didn't shine that night.

take me out, take me out,
amd i'll melt, i'll melt,

all the way down.

-r.m.

"i was skipping everything in between
i was leaving everything up to you
i was waiting for you to fill the quiet
i told you all those things i used to say
but i don't lean as much as i used to
and we are noticing the difference
we just keep lingering around
we just keep skipping everything in between."

people should be:

great but humble
virtuous but not righteous
deeply spiritual but not preachy
strong but with the ablility to be vulnerable
approachable not suspicious
curious not ignorant
kind but not through pity
confident but without pride
independent but not dog-eat-dog
understanding not bitter

there are so many fine lines between what is good and what is destructive.

i think i have a problem with building up walls. i tend to lose track of the time and the days that pass by and all the opportunities to pick up the phone or send a letter. i guess i have a problem with letting other people do the work or that if they wanted to talk they'd call me.
i think i need to put more weight in my presence even if it's just in a phone call...